Reconciliation

God has brought peace to my heart and to my heart.
He alone is worthy to be praised.
God has given me things to do,
By faith I will.
God knows that with out a plan I will persish.
I will go and make disciples of all the nations.
Though I stumble, He will help me stand.
I am His daughter and He is my Father.
I am reconciled to Him.

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What a wonderful week

God is so gracious to me. He has allowed me to have the most simply marvellous week. I am rejuvinated in mind and spirit. The body is a little weary atfer playing Kaiser till 2am, but it was worth it to be with friends. I was able to spend time with friends and play my guitar. I worshipped and read His word. I read through John which I haven't done in a long time and it was so neat the things that He allowed me to see. My plan at the beginning of the month was to read one chapter a day, but on this break I would finish reading the chapter and I would say just one more. So needless to say I have to start a new book because I finished that one.

I have a small confession to make. I really like Christian romance novels. Now before you roll yours eyes let me tell you why. When I read these books someone always decides to make Jesus their Lord. The characters are never pushy or saying that you have to be a certain way. There is a passion in the characters for the word of God and it made me think, why not me? I know him and he loves me so where did that passion for his word go. Well anyhow He has renewed it and has allowed me to again walk in the gifts that he has given me. I am just so happy. Alright the brain has now shut off, blessings to all who read.

Passwords and Happiness

Passwords; I have so many passwords and user names that I frequently use the I forgot my password button in order to log onto things. Isn't it funny how for all these earthly things that have not real power over anything are so well protected. I however with a thought or a word can access the DUDE(english for YAHWEH) who has made it all happen. He made the sun come out, which made me sooooooo happy. I got to talk and laugh with my sister on the phone, which made me sooooo happy. I got to make fun of my brother- in-law and brother which made me so happy.(hee hee hee) I was able just to be. I didn't beat myself up and I didn't feel to yucky today. I found out that my sister's first clinical was a Ortho on city which is where I am. The small things really make me the happiest. Flowers, "kisses", sunshine, laughing, smiling, icing, cupcakes, phoning friends. I have to brag; I have this really great friend who always compliments me because I laugh at all her jokes. I think she is the best and really, she is the one who inspired me to write on my blog tonight.

I hope you have enjoyed my little tangent of happiness, I know I have:)
p.s. I have all week off which I think is contributing to my general mood of happiness. If anyone would like to listen to me explain any of my anatomy or physiology to them. I would be willing, it helps me retain it I am discovering:)

Take a Chance

I still get lost in my own worlds in my brain, but for the most part they are highly amusing. I am learning this week that what I do and how I feel is not necessarily who I am. That's right the grouchy irritable side of me is simply the me who does not listen to the still quiet voice in my heart. For instance, I hear a voice say stay home, but I think no I will go out and spend time with my friend who has had a hard day. This may sound silly but going out was the wrong choice. Somedays I need to let God be God and do what he does. I am taking these classes that make me reflect on who I am, what I do and why I do it. It's hard, but good. See my friend needs to learn to be still and know that He is God. One prayer, one word of encouragement. I am learning to be obDIEnt without sacrificing myself on the altar of good, but useless deeds. That's it for now tomorrow is bed making and bedbaths; yep someone else gets to wash me. weird! oh well; what goes around comes around!

Princess Warrior

Well truth be told I have not been acting like a princess or a warrior. The fact is that I have been acting. Acting like I have it together, like I know what I am doing. I have been acting like I know better than God. I have not been obDIEnt, like Sarah talked about, nope I have been obSHERRYISNOTGIVINGUPUNTILITKILLSHERnt. I don't know if this will actuall post, but I guess if you are readingit it did. Yep I have been walking on the road leading to death. Why I don't really know, but I know I love His grace and I am so glad that He does not look at me the way I feel that humans look at me when I fail. Thanks for picking me up, I am gonna try walking again.

Moving Mountains

I had a dream last night and have been avoiding writing it down because if it is not written down it didn't really happen. Well anyways I was dreaming that Greg Mitchell came back to speak at our church and I had this picture that all of us(the whole of humanity) are walking on mountains. Then God drew this line from me to this other person and it was representing what God requires of me with other people. Then there was this other line that went up into heaven and then out to the other person and it was all filled in like a pie graph. That was representing what God does. I just have this little tiny part called obedience and then he does the rest. I am scared to share my faith, because I do not want to be rejected, so I reject others before they can reject me. The other part to the dream was the Greg was preaching and said "do you know why we ease into things? Because were lazy." I was thinking about it and really it does take work to engage in friendships and to speak. If we just sit at home and do nothing we do not use up energy and it requires less effort to feed ourselves spiritually. But getting food for two or three people requires more work and the food runs out faster so you have to go "shopping" at God's grocery store more often.

God is the one who moves the mountain I just have to tell it to go throw itself in the see. No biggy! ha ha

Finally...Baptism of the Holy Spirit

Okay this is the shorter version of how I came to be baptized in the Holy Spirit and speak in tongues. It all started when I believed that I controlled my destiny and that I was to go to the east coast with the Bethany Drama team my second year. You see I was heavily involved with drama first year so obviously I would be on the team second year. NOT. I was stripped of all the things that God had just built up in me the previous year. See it wasn't about me it was about His glory. OK fast forward to graduation weekend second year. I am driving in from Saskatoon with my mother and she is asking me these things about what I think about speaking in tongues or being baptised in the Holy Spirit. I thought she was absolutely nuts. Even though I was the one who went the the pentecostal youth group and church during my high school years. Anyhoo, I went back to Assiniboia to live with my sister in my Aunt's apartment and so we were at an evening service at the Apostolic Church and this guy was talking about the Holy Spirit and telling his testimony of the works of the Spirit in him and his friends. They figured if it is in the word it must be true. So then he finished his sermon and I was visiting with a lady from Limerick and my mom asked me if I wanted to go to the front and have some prayer. I said sure I can always use more prayer in my life. Then when the speaker guy came over he said so you would like the Baptism of the Holy Spirit. I say uh ok. Then he had us just begin speaking in tongues and that is how I found the power of God to be in my life.
If I just stick to the road that is paved before me I won't fall over so much. It is when I think I know what is best and figure the marshlands are a quicker way there that I get stuck. Our brother Wayne spoke today and I was impressed how God showed himself to the Israelites because they did all that God told them to, not just half of a job. See if we are travelling to a city and give up half way there then wonder why we can't find it, well duh we aren't there yet. Yep if I want to get with God's program I have to go back and do all my homework( ok Sarah:) you know where I live). That is the shorter version. Oh yeah the preacher dude lives at my farm with his family now. Bizarre!