Rain, rain go away come again when i say!

Faith vs. peer pressure

I think having faith more often than not will make me look like a fool. I think when Peter started to sink that his buddies weren't saying - Dude that is totally rad, wait for me. I think they were saying Peter What are you doing? I know you think that that ghost is Jesus and it said come to me but due, get back in the boat. Peter, GET BACK IN THE BOAT. I think Peter became embarassed of his faith and it was shame that made him sink.

I recently had an experience with the rain where i really wanted to sit outside and enjoy my fire so I commanded it not to rain and it didn't, but than I had a friend come out and I stopped commanding it because I felt foolish. So it not only rained, but down poured. Amazingly enough the fire re-lit itself after the down pour.

"The Cross is foolishness to those who are perishing but to those who are being saved it is the power of God." I am not saying that my friend was perishing, but different levels of faith exhibit different levels of foolishness. David danced in his underwear before God and man and it's credited to him as faith. God speaks to me and I'm know I'm not schizophrenic.

Faith people, don't be ashamed.

I will not be ashamed.

I know I'm fantastic, I just don't believe it?!

Well hello, apparently I have been on a an island. To update the darkness is not so dark anymore:) I was out at my friends acreage and when I left the sky was clouded over so there was no moonlight. I had to walk to my car in the dark! It would have been pitch black except for the light pollution reflecting off the clouds and making it easy for me to maneuver the mud and building supplies. I also used my mind to see the path I had walked in the daylight. Our brains are amazing.

So this week I have been thinking a lot about how I know I am liked, loved and likable. Most people would probably be on cloud nine with these thoughts, but sometimes I feel pressure from myself to perform so that I can continue being liked. The good news is that I am letting go and letting God. I am standing tall and not being blown about by others desires or perceived needs. I am easily swayed to get people out of tough circumstances which they themselves have created or that God is trying to teach them a lesson in. Enough about others.

The thought is that if people really saw my flaws they wouldn't really think I was that fantastic, but the reality is that people have seen my flaws and they still like me. In fact they are my friends. I have roommates that see the mean, irritable, lazy me and they still bless me. I have friends to whom I confess my failures and sins and you know what they like me too! So there I have it. I believe that I am worthy of being liked and loved:)


That's my rant for the night. Blessings.

Darkness

Moonlight, nightlight, starlight... What is the common theme in theses words. That's right they are all compound nouns :P I know that's what you all thought too. Okay so the other common themes are that the have light in them, but they also only exist in the darkness. It is winter, I work 12 hour shifts, so I fancy myself to be an expert on darkness or at least night.

It is in the darkest night that the smallest light makes the largest difference. No one cares about turning on a light when the sun is shining bright. Moonlight and starlight are best experienced in the vast spaces of darkness. My farm was the best for this or the drive between Moose Jaw and Assiniboia just the hills and you and vast amounts of sky. When there is no moon the stars shine even more brilliantly. It is as if a jeweler has taken the finest cuts of diamonds and infused them with light then scattered them across a black velvet canvas. The brilliance is accented only by the darkness, without that darkness it would not have been as brilliant.

Counting my blessings

I like posting thankfulness. I complain too much as it is.
#21. Went for coffee with Kamelle after a night shift. She so gracious, loves me even though it seems like she always gets me when I am super tired.
#22. New friends at work who I can relate to and go out with.
#23. Ginger ale to relieve nausea.
#24. A new knitting project for home!
#25. Portable Knitting project, 1/3 done my scarf!
#26. Cool weather. (hats and scarves season)
#27. More organized than less.
#28. Friends who I can connect with even when I don't see them for months.
#29. All night worship sessions.
#30. Finding forgiveness and mercy for myself and others.
#31. Books on tape!

I could write more but I am going to have a bubbly bath(#32).

More to Be Thankful For!

Here we are posing...

...and here is an action shot of us knitting!
It was hard to capture this photo, but I waited all day and got it:)

#11. Yarn - fun for cats and People.
#12. Having Oriol live in my basement and still share life with me!
#13. Mama - She cooks me yummy food and loves me even if i'm whiny.
#14. Papa and his crazy commando stalking in the park. Such a fun walk in MJ. We walked in the park and Dad and Luke(#21) tried to sneak up on us, so we tried to hide from them. Super great weekend!
#15. Being at rest and peace in my house even if someone else would think "Have you done anything today?" - Yes I did my dishes! :P (insert lip flapping noise here)
#16. Kitting needles!
#17. Realizing you are really nerdy and surrounded by nerds when your friend comes up and starts laughing at you while you are knitting(#18). Of course she's laughing because she was downstairs knitting. So then she comes up and you watch a movie and knit. How much leisure can you pack into two hours?!
#19. Friends who sell you good cars for a cheap price!
#20. Cozy hat from Farmfest!

Appreciating my Life!

I think I don't fully appreciate what I have some days. For instance I am sitting here blogging in the middle of the day with no worries. I don't have to make supper for anyone, not even myself actually cause I have a free supper meeting. I have no children to interrupt my peace and quiet. I can make coffee dates for almost whenever I want. I really appreciate the liberties I have. On the other hand I know when the day comes I will fully embrace the joys that the other life brings.

Well now more about me. Someone gave me a fantastic silverware tray. How do these people know when to come? I am currently waiting for something to arrive from someone.

In my singleness I can see the provision that God has made for me. He gives me the best surprises whether it is through people or natural circumstances (ie. sunshine pouring through a window and hitting my face.)

I need to be more thankful and remember the good things about my day and life, especially work. I shall start today.

#1 I am thankful that my work is looking at ways to improve our organization so we can care better for our patients.
#2 The man in the hallway calling out, Jesus where are you? how do I get to Jesus. I just want to go home, I am sick of this world.
#3 My very own home and all the dreams I dream about it knowing that I have many years to implement them.
#4 Airplanes flying overhead, I feel like I am in my father's childhood home.
#5 My mama and #6 papa cause they love me.
#7 My older brother, he is very interesting and has taught me not to quit even when it sucks. I should tell him.
#8 My sister, she almost always sounds happy to hear from me. Usually if it is the 3rd phone call of the day she starts to wain:)
#9 My little brother he is very giving and sweet, any takers ;)
#10 My future dog, who I am sure not matter how well passes the dog tests will be like Parker :)

That's it for now time to organize the house and throw out the clutter.

Weird

I am up because i canor sleep. When I wake up these days all I can think about is research nurse patient ratios. Such a keener:)

A little game from Puddles ;)

1. Who are you to me?
2. How Long have we known each other?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Choose a nickname for me and explain why
5. Describe me in one word
6. What reminds you of me?
7. If you could give me a gift, what would it be?
8. Do you think you know me well?
9. When was the last time you saw / talked to me?
10. What was the funniest thing we did together or said to each other?
11. What do we talk about all the time?
12. Do you think we will always be friends?
13. If you had to throw something at me, what would it be?
14. Are you going to write the same note so I can write crazy stuff about you too?

Photos from my life