Thursday, January 26, 2006
I still get lost in my own worlds in my brain, but for the most part they are highly amusing. I am learning this week that what I do and how I feel is not necessarily who I am. That's right the grouchy irritable side of me is simply the me who does not listen to the still quiet voice in my heart. For instance, I hear a voice say stay home, but I think no I will go out and spend time with my friend who has had a hard day. This may sound silly but going out was the wrong choice. Somedays I need to let God be God and do what he does. I am taking these classes that make me reflect on who I am, what I do and why I do it. It's hard, but good. See my friend needs to learn to be still and know that He is God. One prayer, one word of encouragement. I am learning to be obDIEnt without sacrificing myself on the altar of good, but useless deeds. That's it for now tomorrow is bed making and bedbaths; yep someone else gets to wash me. weird! oh well; what goes around comes around!
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Well truth be told I have not been acting like a princess or a warrior. The fact is that I have been acting. Acting like I have it together, like I know what I am doing. I have been acting like I know better than God. I have not been obDIEnt, like Sarah talked about, nope I have been obSHERRYISNOTGIVINGUPUNTILITKILLSHERnt. I don't know if this will actuall post, but I guess if you are readingit it did. Yep I have been walking on the road leading to death. Why I don't really know, but I know I love His grace and I am so glad that He does not look at me the way I feel that humans look at me when I fail. Thanks for picking me up, I am gonna try walking again.