Thursday, May 19, 2011

Checking out of Life!

"I'm taking a break from life." That's what i told my friend today. I said' "Life is too hard. Everybody I talk to is having a crisis." I had a crisis on Sunday. I came home from church sat on my couch and wept. I had just had a beautiful waffle breakfast and all I could do was weep. I thought I was going mental. NO, seriously! I had strong thoughts about checking myself into the psych ward. I thought, maybe I need a nap, so I napped. Nope. Then I thought, I probably need exercise, so I went for a walk, nope, still weeping. Maybe I should eat?! Nope not helping. So then i went to church. I had to, I didn't want to, but I had made a commitment and I couldn't back out.

I saw and friend and told her what was going on, she said I had entered the 4th level. What is that? Maybe i get to be a jedi warrior after I stop crying. Nope I get to be an interceding princess warrior!! How awesome is that. Okay so the 4th level comes after surface, physical, mental/emotional. It's the part where you find deep communion with Holy Spirit!! I watched a video from Steve Wilkerson and he was talking about anguish. He was asking where the anguish was and how anguish preceded great healing and triumph.

I am signing back up. Bring on the crap. I will weep and I will walk and we will triumph. Who am I joking I tried signing up for normal life. It was really boring and victories were lame because the valleys were more like slight depressions in the plateau of life. There were no mountains or rolling hills, just flat steady nothingness.

Hello life! Iiiii'm baaaaack. :)


Nomi said...

Nice post! Are those pictures ones you took in Coventry? Miss you. :)

Princess Warrior said...

Sure are! Good eye. I miss you too! I often think about the fun I had.

halloweencouple said...

thankful for our God who helps us even when we vear off track :)

fellow princess warrior here!!!

Soumaya Ben Rochd said...

Hi Princess warrior,
I read a few of your postes, and there are feelings pretty close to what I experienced and still... I'll return again later to see more of what you post.

Soumaya from Morocco

Guy Page said...

Hello Princess Warrior -

I was sitting in McDonalds today browsing blogs trying to find out how to find Christians who might be interested in mine (reading through New Testament in a year) and just about died laughing, but it was a good laugh, when I read your line: "Bring on the crap. I will weep and I will walk and we will triumph." Having lost someone very close three months ago I can relate to the ups and downs. Keep up the good work! Am kind of new to blogging so don't know much about following etc. but will try to "follow" yours.

David Wagner said...

Stumbled in here via the "Next Blog" link, and what do I find? This terrific post! Look at all that you said in a few short paragraphs!

My kind of writer. Durn it, now I'm just going to have to follow this blog...

The yankee said...

Yes....pretty much what David said!
Compelling! Really good PW
The yankee

Anonymous said...

Hi My name is Tammy, I host a Blog Talk Radio Show each Monday night. May I read this on my next show or maybe you would like to come on and share it while explaining a bit more about checking out. This is really a good one. By the way, the title of the show for next Monday is Have You Checked Out of Life. You can send me an email at and maybe we can connect. Thanks