Growth, change and the like

So life is full of growth and change. I don't mind it at all, but I appreciate structure and advanced notice. I have grown to appreciate the freedom that structure and boundaries bring. I am ...

To run or not to run? Is that really the question?

So I've decided to take up running, again. I'm hoping to ward off heart disease and varicose veins. I am going to pace myself so as not to over do it. I have a habit of jumping in with both feet and than tiring out or getting bored.

I just had my first workout or at least that what my app thinks. I like to test things out so I listened to my workout music and the couch to 5k lady telling me when to warm up/walk/run/cool down. Yep all from the comfort of my bed. I feel like this has been a first good step besides it started raining before I could get out of bed.

Now to get out of bed. I could go for a run and than have a stretch and go to church. Ready set ...Go!

Lost

Adjusting

Large adjustments, small adjustments and fine adjustments. I have been making large adjustments in my life not by choice. Adjustments are hard and it seems like they all come at the same time. I need to make some of my own adjustments but I'm scared. There I said it. I am afraid of what lies ahead. I'm afraid that the change won't work and I'll be stuck in this crazy cycle. I can't do this anymore. I need out.

I feel for people who can't figure out how to change their lives and when they try different things and are met with failure. It would be so frustrating to think you know what the problem is and than not be able to either change it or get the anticipated result.

It's humbling/humiliating to admit when you can't do something, especially when it seems as though everyone else is able to do it. Oh well that's life do what you can. Don't give up. Rejoice when you succeed.