In My Opinion...

When I was in Mexico a few years ago God taught me three lessons. The one that I remember today is my opinion doesn't matter. I have been reflecting on this thought for the past few weeks and am trying to live by it. Opinions cause division, fighting, unrest, anger and are a product of pride. Truth will set you free. Jesus said of himself I am the way the truth and the life, no one comes the the father except by me. You will know the truth and the truth will set you free.

My job, as the daughter of the king, is to bring truth to light so that those who live in darkness may be set free. Have you ever experienced your opinion on a political position setting someone free. When you told some one that you think such and such is the stupidest thing you have ever seen, did they fall on their knees in repentance before Yahweh. I think you see my point. When we tell our friend that flourescent orange is not the colour for them and speak gently with them, they will probably appreciate it. Even more so when we take the Word of Yahweh and say the gossip you are spreading because you are angry is wrong, now stop it! If you take pleasure in correcting people, you have issues. We are to gently restore our brothers and sisters to the LORD. Correction needs to be done in humility and with prayer. If we go into a situation thinking now I am going to get ya! You better take a step back and repent of your pride...

I need a break I will write more about this later.

Chez Belle

God is at work in our little community of 5 women. Watch and see how amzing He is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Almost free!

I passed all of the exams I was worried about and got 72% on one of them. To bring this number into perspective I can graduate with distinction if I have a 75% average. I think I may aim for that now that I see it is attainable. One exam left then I am free to be and do what I please, within the provision of God's perfect love of course! Oh I am so excited!

My semester is done and what's this? I am still alive!

I Sherry Lee Palmer have survived the first semester of 2nd year nursing. It is quite amusing to meet nurses who have gone through the same program and have them ask what year you are in and who your instructors are, than after telling them they get a look of complete horror on their face and this look of I'll pray for you. Yep, all I have now is finals. I feel like spring have come. My God is so big, so strong and so mighty; there's nothing my God cannot do. Yipppeeeeeeeee!

Livin' Large

I don't actually know what livin' large means or that it has anyhing to do with what I am going to write, but I liked it and thought it may inspire some reading. I do however feel that if livin' large means livin' all for Jesus then I am all for it.

Ramblings de moi. I have 5 classes left this week and 3 on Monday, but one is a potluck with our favourite song, so not really any work invovled. I am going to make the most fantastic ranch feta, red pepper, sun-dried tomatoe, chicken and soy cheese pizza my class has ever tasted(Thanks for introducing me to it Mark:)).

I read a sign this morning that said people with goals succeed because they know where they are going. So my goals are to extend love and forgiveness whenever possible, to offer kindness and to be the amazing women I know Yahweh has created me to be. I have some other goals, but I will start with these.

December 8 I start finals and then DEC. 18 I finish. YAY! I want to sit around and do nothing. By this I mean I want to go running, ride bike, go sledding, read tons of fantastic books, bake, sleep and eat tons of great food. Oh yeah I also want to hang out with my fantastic friends. YAY!

Happy holidays! Merry Christmas!

Life and the likes

WOW, I haven't blogged since Saturday I think that that is some sort of personal record for this month. What can I say that you don't already know? Quite a bit actually:) Alright the life of moi is like this right now. I am walking one day at a time. Some days are good and some days are draining yet good. This week has been particularly good and just a wee bit draining. So to encourage good days for all who read I will recount God's goodness and blessing in my life. Sunday I drove home with my Pops and roomate from winterpeg which was shockingly spring like. We arrived in Stoonerville at 8:30pm. YAY! I really hate arriving home late after a long drive right before I have to go to school the next day.
Monday hmmm... I can't remember so it must have been a long good day.
Tuesday I met with a lady at my school and we talked about school and how I could get through it with out going bonkers. We agreed that I would do something non school related once a week. I really liked this part and have found that it really helps focus me on what I need to do.
Wednesday I had a date with my Dad. He took me to out for supper and than we went to the Beach Boys. I am really glad that my mother was in Florida so that I could go. I think it may have been one of my funnest(I know this is not a word) times with my dad. We were talking about what a bad day was and he made a comment that made me go hmmm. He was talking and said you know is it really that people are having a bad day or are they just having a normal day. I thought that was quite insightful. He said a bad day is getting in a car accident or your cat dying. If you have things happen that generally happen in your day or week. It's normal. He is just so wise when I give him a chance to be the dad and I let myself not be in control.
Thursday I had half a day off which I spent doing my microbiology project with my partner. We made a fantastic display about Dengue Fever.
Friday I had another half day of classes, really how can I have a bad day when I only work for half of it. I went shopping with my roomie and found two fantastic shirts for $15 each. I have been bemoaning the pathetic quality and redundance I feel with my wardrobe. Then we had a fabulous me that was made by my fabulous roomate. Then we were putzing around and a friend phoned to return a book and we got to hang out with some fantastic people, speaking encouraging words and singing songs, than we went out and looked at some amazing twinklers.
Saturday I worked a shift down at the westside Community Clinic with the SWITCH team. This day I learnt that most of us are vit. D deficient. so if you can afford it go buy some vitamin D pills or go for a walk and let the sun kiss your face and fill you with Vit. D. Do not out on sunscreen it will block out the vitamin D builders. Vitamin D deficiency is connected with mood disorders. Drink milk and eat fatty fish, do what you have to to get those Vitamin Ds into you. Saturday evening I hung out with my roomates and had a bit of a tiff, but we worked it out and we still love each other.
Sunday Church was amazing and I am amazed how God works in people. Yahweh is great and I get to follow him around, yay!!!

Positive Space

I finally figured it out. Right now I am in Winnipeg at my sister's and I love it. When I come here I am free to be, free to laugh, free to whatever. Is it the freedom I love? Nope. When I am here we eat, play games, stay up late get up early, lay around and do nothing. Go on grand adventures to wonderful places like Safeway where we do outrageous things like take our blood pressure. Yep this is my family we are incredibly silly and somewhat predictable. I love this to, but it is still not the brainwave I had this morning. dadadadadadadadaddadadadada(that's my drum roll) I love being here because it is a positive space. What is that you may ask? Well, it is a space where we don't gossip about people and say how stupid they are. It is a space where things are discussed and issues tackled, but no one takes themselves to seriously. Everyone who comes in the door is loved and appreciated. When you wake up in the morning there is someone waiting outside your door to greet you with a big slobbery kiss and if you aren't careful he may topple you down the stairs. This is the kind of space I want to create for my guests in our home in Saskatoon. I think we have a lot of these things already. I am working on the big slobbery kiss part, but am affeared that I willhave to wait until I buy my own house. Anyway welcome to my positive space of encouragement and have a God day.

Update on me

Doing waaaaaaaay better. There is nothing a good cry and God can't fix. I talked to my school facilitators and I have a few options. I am taking the option of walking one day at a time. So that means tomorrow I will go to clinical and collect info. Then the next day I will decide if I will go into clinical. Day by day minute by minute Yahweh walks with me. We were challenged to holiness this evening by a dear friend at our young adults group. I feel refreshed, but still moving slow. Thanks to all who are praying.

Pray for me

Hello my friends. I don't think I usually do this, but I would just ask that when you think of me pray for me. I don't know what is going on, but recently I have been plagued by dreams. Not just any dreams but dreams of death and violence. My friend recently lost her son and my roomate lost a dear friend. I find myself looking to God, but desperation is overwhelming me. My school work load is heavy and I am not not able to do what I need. Please just pray for me. My roomates are being very supportive, but sometimes the greater body needs to be brought in. Thanks.

Sherry Palmer

Hello my name is Sherry Palmer and I am a blog stalker. Yes I look up people's links and then see who is stalking Sherry Palmer and never admitting it. I am also writing Sherry Palmer so much be cause maybe then people will google me and now that I am not the evil Sherry Palmer from 24. So there is the confession of the hour and also this Sherry Palmer is avoiding homework, aaahh. Back to the books.

A New Beginning

It is a week of new beginnings. I felt like I would love to have fresh image and so there you go a new look for a new life. A little bragging I got 100% on my drug dose exam.

God's Provision

Alright it is time for a new blog. What to say. God is my provider. I recently found myself in need of a computer and alas my little brother had one for me. God has been providing in little ways for me all this month. Bits of sanity placed here and there for me to pick up. Past experiences easing the load of new learning. Ways of doing things that just were not something I thought could happen.

One of the new blessing is only having to cook a meal 1-2 times per week. Of course this come with the increased responsibility of planning a menu and shopping for five people, but I figure it is preparing me for another part of my life.

I am learning what I have to do to maintain sanity while living in a busy household. I figure it is a good thing to learn if I want to have an open door policy in my home later on. Oh yeah just because you trust in God doesn't mean you shouldn't have insurance. i think it eases the expectation for Him to always be performing miraculous things as well I figure it is part of being responsible and being a good steward of what he has given me. Well off to do microbiology and learn about Dengue Fever. Ciao!

Thank You

I really like my life in the city. I like being able to walk or bike everywhere if I choose. I like being near my garden and I am excited to be home with all my roomies. I am a blessed woman. I am learning that a thankful heart has much to be thankful to be thankful for and a complaining heart has much to complain about. My mother and I always wondered if it is possible to be positive and upbeat all the time. I think what is possible is to have an attitude of gratitude all the time. Though I am stressed at times about the job I have I am thankful, because I have had time to be with my family and friends while still earning money. I am thankful that I have the ability to love others and bless others with gentleness and kindness. I am thankful for the hard days that form my character to be more like Jesus.
I am thankful that my walls of protecting myself are coming down and that my belief that God is sovereign and can protect me is going up. He protects me by giving me wisdom. I am not just allowed to do whatever, He gave me a brain so that I would make wise decisions not stupid ones. I am thankful that I have friends who have knowledge of finances, love and life that I can draw upon.
I am thankful for my roomates who bring out my pride so that I can learn to walk humbly. I am thankful that I need only ask what do I need to do today and than allow my God to shape it. No need to get uptight when things aren't quite just so he has it under control. Yay!
I guess what I am trying to say is I am thankful. What are you thankful for? I would love to hear.

Life on the Farm

What is life on the farm what does it mean to a weary person? Life on the farm is the place where after being up at 5:30am and working all day you still make a meal at 9:00pm for the other person who has been working all day. Or perhaps this is life as God meant it to be that we bless others before ourselves. Last night I was at my great aunt’s place and she made me a meal. We ate and then all of a sudden I was so tired that I could barely keep my eyes open, so she insisted i lay down. I slept for 20 minutes, but it felt like 4 hours. Then we watched a movie called The Other Side of Heaven. It was so nice. It is a Disney film about a Mormon missionary. He goes away for 2 ½ years and sees God heal a dead boy, his own feet and people finding faith. I know that there are things that are not particularly doctrinally sound in their faith, but I was so inspired. I think it was definitely a God moment. I will talk more of this movie later for now back to the farm.

Life on the farm is about sweet fresh air sleep. I have slept 11 hours each night waking up a little bit during the night but then returning to sleep. There are no drunks out my window and not stale hot air to try and sleep in. I am blessed. My stress level is descending as is my fat lip that grows with stress (cold sores). I feel very lost and very free down here. Lost in the wonders of God’s creation and free to revamp my relationship with my LORD. Shalom, peace.

Going Home

I am going home tomorrow(wed) for an undetermined amount of time. I will get to talk and meet with people for work and best of all I get to see my relations. My phone number will be 642-4094, give me a call if you have time.

Marley & Me

Marley and Me is a fantastic book about life with the world's worst dog. The author is John Grogan and if you love to laugh out loud it is a great book. My Tam and Mark own a dog of the same breed and he quite possibly rivals Marley for the world's worst dog. He loves to play and if you ignore him he'll find your shoe and run around with it untill you notice him. My favourite thing about Parker is when he's all tired out and I am sitting on the couch and he comes and lays on me. I am sure most of you are picturing this dog just putting his head in my lap. NO, he comes and sticks his entire body on you, all 90+lbs of him. He will lick you to death if he gets the chance, but if someone ever tried to hurt us he would definitely have a few choice barks for them.

Hi Mara hope you are having a great day!

A picture is worth a 1000 words, so here is a novel!

killer pine tree, it was bombing my dad and I on our picnic...
unfortunately only one of us lived to tell about it...just kidding
Oriol's electrifying personality in full force.Parker, my favourite canine
Parker again, looking very innocent, but waiting for

his prey to approach so he can lick them into submission.

July 4, 2001

Five years agos I went through a time that is quite indescribable. God is very faithful. This is a passage that was given to me by a dear friend who was helping me to become free in Jesus.

Hosea 5:15-6:3
"Then I will go back to my place until they admit their guilt. ans they will seek my face; in their misery they will earnestly seek me.
Come let us return to the LORD. He has torn us to pieces but he will heal us; he has injured us but he will bind up our wounds.
After two day he will revive us; on the third day he will restore us, that we may live in his presence.
Let us acknowledge the LORD; let us press on to acknowledge him. As surely as the sun rises, he will appear he will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth."

He is a great and faithful God.

God's Goodness

I think this must be some sort of a record 4 blogs in 3 days. Anyhoo, church was really neat this morning. I ended up sitting beside the boy who I just broke up with and it was suggested that we find someone to pray with. In my heart I knew that this was God trying to bring healing, but I just kept my eyes closed hoping he would go elsewhere, even though I knew he wouldn't. I just felt awkward. So of course we ended up talking and I shared with him how I had listened to the dating and courtship tape and how me kissing him was stealing and vice versa. God has given a woman's body to the man she will marry and a man's body to the woman he will marry. By us kissing and even holding hands, I stole and gave that which was not mine. It was really good to repent before God and to each other the mess that we had made. It was also good when dear friend was telling me the grace that God has for those who run ahead of other making a way where one has not been trodden. There are no more hammers whacking at me and when I pick one up with which to condemn myself than I pray that I remember that I am forgiven and my God will restore. 4 days and I get to go to Manitoba to hang with my family:)

Brain Dump

A dear friend asked me if I was settled or if it would take awhile for my brain to download what has happened in the past 2 months. I figured I was settled, but after listening to a tape on courtship and dating I am not. After some well intentioned advice I gave a way my first kiss %^@*#! I do a lot of swearing these days. It is funny I did not realize how deep into my soul this reached. I am convicted and somewhat undone. I will not be duped again. After I say I do. I will. The man that wins my heart will honour this. He will seek out places where this cannot happen and will be my protector. He will know my parents and my parents will know him. If he's lucky, scratch that if he is my intended he will advance. If not he best continue on and not bother to stimulate my heart. There ain't no electric energy flowing from this heart without the expressed approval of my parents. I may not live with my parents, but I'll be damned if I do not listen to their wisdom. I have not listened long enough and now I will submit my wayward heart and walk as my Lord intended. I will fulfill my destiny and there will be no turning back. I told my roomate I had no regrets, but now that I think about it that is a lie. I regret that kiss. I gave something which was not mine to give and it was taken by someone who had not signed the covenant that gave the rights over to him. My armour is on my spirit is alert and the battle rages. No more wooing, no more games. Straight shooters need only apply!

R.A.G.s

Random Acts of Godness. Funny how when I quit satisfying my flesh andbegin just being, God blesses. I was riding my bike around downtown and went by the river than deposited a cheque than started home. Yes exciting I know well than you'll never guess who I ran into. My dear friend Sasha. She is from Winnipeg and had hitch hiked out here and was waiting for her bus to leave in the morning. She asked me if I knew any cheap hotels, I didn't. (I've actually only known her for less than an hour right now). Anyhoo I invited her to sleep on my couch and she accepted. Now some of you will read this and think What the heck is Sherry Lee Palmer thinking??? Well let me tell you. I could have let her sleep by the river than awoken the next day wondering if she was okay or if she had been hurt or I can offer her a nice soft couch and safe place to sleep, risking that the God I so dearly love is going to take care of me and my house. That's right I am daring to have faith. So have a great sleep I know I will.

Whirl Wind

Well my whirlwind romance has ended as abruptly and peacefully as it started. I have no regrets and no doubts that the road I walked and am walking is the road God has for me. I will fulfill my destiny! Who my co-workers will be throughout the journey is all part of the exciting adventure. I would like to thank all of you wonderful people who have walked with me and heard me. Next time if you have doubts tie me to a chair until my brain reattaches and the hormones subside.
Thanks again.

I am imperfect...

I am imperfect that is why I need you.
I can not hear, that is why I must see you.
The light that shines is blinding sometimes.

Changing People and random ramblings

I find myself wanting to change people in my life. If they would just talk more or if another would just say things a certain way, than maybe people would like them more. How dumb is that idea. Yah! People are perfect just the way they are! Why, you ask? Because if no one ever irritated me I would never grow. It is the trials of friendships that make us seek God and the irritations that send our roots deep. In my household when we tell each other what is going on it does two things. One it releases the pressure and allows the other to understand that another has been struggling. Two, it gives us a chance to practice not raising our defenses in the face of correction. So who needs to change? Me! I can change people by changing me. If I grow in love and it spills out than others feel valued. If others feel valued than they grow in confidence. If they find confidence than they will reach out to others. If they reach out to comfort others than there are less people for me to take care of and I start to walk in mutual friendship and not just mentorship with people. I love it when my relationships reach this point.

My sister once told me that I would make a great guy, but that she was really glad I was a girl. (sorry tam you probably don't remember telling me this. It was in the kitchen at the island.) Over the years i have reflected on this. One thing is that I llove to fix things. I fixed my fan yesterday, no more clicking. Where does this need to fix people come from? It is my protective nurturing motherly instinct. I would rather die than see the people I love not being liked by others. So I try to change them into what I think others would like, but really than nobody wins. Since my sister told me this I have changed a lot. I allow men to do things for me that I am completely capable of doing. I do not get offended if no one knows I can do something. (If they want more work than who am I to argue.) I love it when people say they need help because than we know and can say yes, no or this is what I can do would that help.

I have to sign out now I have procrastinated too long. I love you my readers, if you want to do coffee, phone me and we will schedule a time.

Acronyms and Poetry

My life is filled with acronyms and poetry. No no one is writing me cheesy notes. I am writing my own cheese. I am taking a class on how to teach in the healthcare setting and I am really good at making up acronyms. I wrote a poem to teech them to brush their teeth. I love doing presentations. I do feel unprepared. For some reason I leave it all to the last minute. When I sit down and try to be creative nothing happens, but an 3 hours, even 10 minutes before I need to speak I get all sorts of things downloaded into my brain.

LIFE. L is for laughing. My dentist was yanking on my mouth and moving my lips around so much that I was beginning to wonder if he was giving my mouth a passive workout. I laughed as he did it. I is for insanity. I make decisions and have peace thanwhen one thing changes or someone asks me a question I begin to go insane. Prayer and talking help calm the insanity. F is for friends. I have so many great friends that have much wisdom in the new areas of life I am adventuring in and so many friends that have been there to form who I am. E is for my eternal God. He is my ulitimate and he will direct my path even if I ended up on a detour.

Beware the Crazy People

I love my friends. We hung out and had an absolute blast. Of course I think I am the only person to draw blood while bowling.

It's not my Job

When I was working on the farm one summer my favourite phrase was it's not my fault because everytime I got into a vehicle it would break down. Well over this past month I have been learning what is and is not my job. The first time was when I told someone that I would make sure that this other person did something and he said "That's not your job." So that is the first instance. Than I was talking with another friend and again wanted to tell someone what to do and she said "That's not your job." My job is to love, encourage, build up and love some more. My job is not to judge, condemn, point out what they need to ask forgiveness for. My job is to encourage people's hearts to turn towards God to inspire them to be better people. I know for a fact that when I am encouraged by someone to do something that I have way more energy to do it than if they tell me not to do something.

So what is my job? To create a loving safe place in which individuals can grow to the potential God sees in them, which by the way is unimaginable.

Muddy Waters

Muddy Waters. I feel like this is what I am travelling in right now. It is warm and soothing but sometimes you step on sharp objects that hurt your feet. I have much joy and sadness in my life right now. I have fallen out of relationship with a dear friend. I value her, but actions I have taken have caused deep pain. I am truly sorry for the pain, but rejoice knowing that she has Jesus. I anticipate restoration, but know that there is a deep healing that must occur. So to all my friends, may God's peace which transcends all our understanding descend into your lives like He has in mine.

I've Decided...

I had coffee today with a good friend and I came to a conclusion. I over-analyze stuff. I think way to much and stress out about things. Love is the spice of life. There is not just one person for me who if I don't marry them I will be destined to a life of misery. I believe that there are a few that I could be very happy with most of the time and some that I would be very irritated with most of the time, so I will choose the first. I am looking for a place where I can be safe and secure and for someone whom with I can give that safe and secure place as well. One friend told me I was unapproachable, not well said but true. Another one said I have a wall that is cracked, but the things that are leaking through are amazing and that when the wall finally comes down it is going to be amazing. I like this analogy better.

I have been pushing people to see if they will stay. THIS IS WRONG. I am here to love and be loved. So no more pushing. I am alowed to challenge people to be the best they can be and they can push me to be my best. No running away!

So I have decided today to be a friend and walk this path that I am on and it is this path that another will join me on, whether we walk forever or just a little, I am going to enjoy it and not freak out.

How Do You Decide? Part 2

I have been receiving some interesting responses both direct comments and by e-mail in my quest for wisdom. Responses causing me to say “Am I like that?” I think I like to be some what aloof when it comes to men. For one thing it tells me whether they are going to pursue me, which is what a woman wants. Not to be treated like an object, but to know that they are worth fighting for. I had a rather interesting experience recently. WHICH WILL REMAIN TO BE MY SECRET UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE. Honesty is the best policy we decided, so we have had some very open discussions, the fact that I run from relationships, because I fear making the wrong choice and because I fear hurting another person. So it is “much better” if I break up before it gets to serious. We decided it is good to get to know someone before you drop all of your deep dark issues on them. It can be very over-whelming and create and unequal relationship where one party feels responsible for the other person’s well being.

So what is it that I look for in a man and refuse to go without. (This for all the boys who wonder how Sherry Palmer ticks and just what exactly is my standard.

I do think deep about relationships and men because I am not willing to settle for someone less than what God has for me. I know that the man God has for me will not be intimidated by me or my roommates. That is one reason I like having roommates they give that buffer zone that parents were once responsible for and they allow for a debriefing situation. #1 after Godly, not intimidated by me or my relationships. I am very charming and sweet and can get pretty much whatever I want if I try. He has to be open minded, not given to gossip, complaining, or bitterness. He has to have male friends that he hangs out with regularly and the ability to chase me and not give up, when I try to shut him down. Other endearing qualities assertive, not passive-aggressive. I just won’t tolerate someone who complains but never uses his power to change his situation.

I like to think I am fairly open, but realistically if your mama didn't teach you how to do stuff, I ain't gonna be you mama. I have no desire to train up men, except my many brothers, who need to move out of their parents home and move in together so they can get a feel for real relationship outside of family.

I have just recently had a conversation with one of my dear friends. We both hung out with boys most of our lives. We are girly girls but this is what she said to her fiance. Girls who are friends with guys don't want more cause it will mess up the friendship, but if the girl wants it to be more than you'll be okay, otherwise just don't. He didn't like that answer, but that's the way it really is.

How do you decide?

SO here's the thing I have been single for 27 years give or take 6 months. Probably take since a give would meean having dated when I was in my mommy's tummy. See there is this longing with in that says, get married, but there is this other part that starts freaking out when a guy says you have nice legs or your pretty. Take your pick. I always have it figured out until my brain kicks out and other chemicals kick in. What would a guy have to be like in order to be God's best pairing for me. I don't think I even have a clue of what it means to be in love. I know that I love my roommates, but they are girls and I always have the out of eventually we won't live together anymore. But what about when you get married? I want to not just marry for the sake of marrying, but I want to marry my best friend, or iis that impossible? Do they become your best friend after you marry them? I just don't know. I am definitely open to any wisdom or remarks and for those men out there who know me what kind of a guy could I marry and not pushover with my charm?

I just got a new camera and had to try it out when I came across this cool lookin' guy on a bike...
and then there were these wacky girls... I love my friends!!!
The sheps sailed with the sheep and the pilgrimage was plucked.

So if 3 out of four people never read your blog and no one ever tells them that their picture was posted do you have to ask permission or is being my friend impiled consent? hee hee hee Hope you are all having a great day out there in blogger world.

No I did not fall off the face of the Earth

I guess I should say what is up with me. Well I have written 3 of 5 finals. I feel good about the last two and generally I do alright on the ones I feel okay about. I have to write a final on Interpersonal realtionships on Monday and my Anatomy final on thursday. This one needs lots of studying. My goal is to get and 85.

So anyhoo, I am...well I ahh yah. I am a little tired. Oh I know I played ball on Wednesday and let me tell you I am very sore. I was hitting balls out and lets just say I haven't used my batting muscles in a very long time. It actually hurts to breath.

Still reading the book Blue like Jazz. I really like it. I do not actually think it is possible to create and post modern service that would connect to post modern people. I think we will see more home groups popping up. I am going to end this blog here before I write something I regret and God has to delete my blog:)

Grrr I'm a bear!

You Are Fozzie Bear

"Wocka! Wocka!"You're the life of the party, and you love making people crack up.If only your routine didn't always bomb!You may find more groans than laughs, but always keep the jokes coming.

The Muppet Personality Test

Jacob

Our little Jacob was hit by a car tonight and we are all quite traumatized. Please pray for our girl family and he was our fuzzy source of joy.

The house is eerily quiet. There is a deep sense of loss that surrounds us now. Though it has been less than 24 hours... I don't know what to say. We feel so lost with out him. Bursting into tears at the thought of him. He was more than just our pet he was our friend. It seems silly at the amount of tears shed, but there is something deep that is happening and right now we are raw and hurting. It is as if a family member has died. Words cannot describe what Jacob meant to us.

Reconciliation

God has brought peace to my heart and to my heart.
He alone is worthy to be praised.
God has given me things to do,
By faith I will.
God knows that with out a plan I will persish.
I will go and make disciples of all the nations.
Though I stumble, He will help me stand.
I am His daughter and He is my Father.
I am reconciled to Him.

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What a wonderful week

God is so gracious to me. He has allowed me to have the most simply marvellous week. I am rejuvinated in mind and spirit. The body is a little weary atfer playing Kaiser till 2am, but it was worth it to be with friends. I was able to spend time with friends and play my guitar. I worshipped and read His word. I read through John which I haven't done in a long time and it was so neat the things that He allowed me to see. My plan at the beginning of the month was to read one chapter a day, but on this break I would finish reading the chapter and I would say just one more. So needless to say I have to start a new book because I finished that one.

I have a small confession to make. I really like Christian romance novels. Now before you roll yours eyes let me tell you why. When I read these books someone always decides to make Jesus their Lord. The characters are never pushy or saying that you have to be a certain way. There is a passion in the characters for the word of God and it made me think, why not me? I know him and he loves me so where did that passion for his word go. Well anyhow He has renewed it and has allowed me to again walk in the gifts that he has given me. I am just so happy. Alright the brain has now shut off, blessings to all who read.

Passwords and Happiness

Passwords; I have so many passwords and user names that I frequently use the I forgot my password button in order to log onto things. Isn't it funny how for all these earthly things that have not real power over anything are so well protected. I however with a thought or a word can access the DUDE(english for YAHWEH) who has made it all happen. He made the sun come out, which made me sooooooo happy. I got to talk and laugh with my sister on the phone, which made me sooooo happy. I got to make fun of my brother- in-law and brother which made me so happy.(hee hee hee) I was able just to be. I didn't beat myself up and I didn't feel to yucky today. I found out that my sister's first clinical was a Ortho on city which is where I am. The small things really make me the happiest. Flowers, "kisses", sunshine, laughing, smiling, icing, cupcakes, phoning friends. I have to brag; I have this really great friend who always compliments me because I laugh at all her jokes. I think she is the best and really, she is the one who inspired me to write on my blog tonight.

I hope you have enjoyed my little tangent of happiness, I know I have:)
p.s. I have all week off which I think is contributing to my general mood of happiness. If anyone would like to listen to me explain any of my anatomy or physiology to them. I would be willing, it helps me retain it I am discovering:)

Take a Chance

I still get lost in my own worlds in my brain, but for the most part they are highly amusing. I am learning this week that what I do and how I feel is not necessarily who I am. That's right the grouchy irritable side of me is simply the me who does not listen to the still quiet voice in my heart. For instance, I hear a voice say stay home, but I think no I will go out and spend time with my friend who has had a hard day. This may sound silly but going out was the wrong choice. Somedays I need to let God be God and do what he does. I am taking these classes that make me reflect on who I am, what I do and why I do it. It's hard, but good. See my friend needs to learn to be still and know that He is God. One prayer, one word of encouragement. I am learning to be obDIEnt without sacrificing myself on the altar of good, but useless deeds. That's it for now tomorrow is bed making and bedbaths; yep someone else gets to wash me. weird! oh well; what goes around comes around!

Princess Warrior

Well truth be told I have not been acting like a princess or a warrior. The fact is that I have been acting. Acting like I have it together, like I know what I am doing. I have been acting like I know better than God. I have not been obDIEnt, like Sarah talked about, nope I have been obSHERRYISNOTGIVINGUPUNTILITKILLSHERnt. I don't know if this will actuall post, but I guess if you are readingit it did. Yep I have been walking on the road leading to death. Why I don't really know, but I know I love His grace and I am so glad that He does not look at me the way I feel that humans look at me when I fail. Thanks for picking me up, I am gonna try walking again.